Words...

There are three little words that a military spouse hangs onto like you wouldn't believe...


                                                            
                                         See you soon


                                             I love you.


These words me so much... Now I can't wait until im done counting the days to say..


                                          I missed you.

Long days, long nights...

It seems to be the story of my life when I tell you that my long day turns into a long night.

For weeks I have not slept. Im not sure why that is but I just don't sleep. I want to sleep. Badly. I have gone to the doctor. They say it's insomnia (been there done that in the past). Their advice. Take a sleeping pill. Yuck!

I don't do pills. I could hardly swallow the medication they prescribed over the weekend for a HORRIBLE migrane that had me practically in bed all day long.

I do however get alot more done without the kiddos underfoot : ). Which means all the laundry is currently done, folded and put away. The bathrooms are all clean and my house smells like a hospital. I have a germ issue. It's no secret, I don't like germs.

I had to share, I went to a small city not too far from Oceanside today. I packed up the kids and went for a drive to Temecula to share my day with a great friend and her kiddos! I got an AWESOME deal on some clothes for my kids! I love The Children's Place (LOVE IT). I do a majority of my shopping there, so when I discovered that there was a sale on clothes I pretty much outfitted my kids for the beginning of the school year plus I found an awesome deal on backpacks at Old Navy! And that mall was AWESOME in itself! I think im going that way from here on out if I want to go shopping lol!

The kids are all doing great. Me and Abigail are starting to butt heads. She thinks she needs to get into EVERYTHING!! It's been over 4 years since I have done the toddler thing. Michelle never went through that stage. I wish she had but she kind of skipped over it. So of course I am way out of practice when it comes to making sure she isnt into the things I keep the most organized. Like the movies. They are organized by kids movies through our movies but they are also organized by title. So I am slightly annoyed that I have to totally redo it tomorrow but oh well.

Michelle needs to go back to the orthopedic doctor to schedule more fenol and botox injections. They worked so wonderfully last time and the fenol and botox have definetly worn off and she has become more stiff the last few weeks. We were asked to wait a few more weeks to give her more recovery time from her week long battle with her shunts and I think we may be able to go back now. I will give her doc a ring before I schedule that one. I have to say I am extremely grateful for the options that we have been given for her. I feel like everything that we do Michelle shows us such awesome progress that it is hard to not repeat what needs to be repeated!

Well I guess im going to go lay in bed and count sheep or something. Who knows. Maybe the tv will bore me to sleep!

Looking for something maybe someone can help..

I make my girls bows thanks to my awesome sister in law teaching me. I am looking for the Desert Camouflage Marine Corps uniform ribbon. I want it to look exactly like the uniform. I have seen it. I know it exists and I have gone through almost every google page there is.

Someone help!!!!!!

Every wall breaks sometimes...

Im a pretty tough lady. When it comes to bad things happening within someones life there is a really good chance I have experienced it first hand. In a weird way I thank these people for these horrible and yet life changing events.

I watched a very favorite show of mine tonight. Army Wives. It hits very close to home for me seeing as how alot of what they talk about on the show is true in ways. I will however clarify that the military is like never leaving high school. There is always drama and most of the time it's ugly. Which is why I know about 5 of my neighbors and I personally am good with that.

Anyway, as I am watching I realize what tonights story line is about. I guess in way I haven't had a chance to really miss Shawn. Actually I know I haven't. I have been too busy. I have had things that sadly took away that ability for me to get through the grief for whatever time it was going to be here. Tonight however the grief has come thanks to the story line.

Different people. Completely different lives. All going through the same thing. I honestly wish I could say that it didn't hurt, it does. For the last 2 months it has been like I have been stubbing my toe over and over again and I just keep walking it off. But now. It's like I broke my whole leg. Bad analagy I know. You get my point.

Blogging this seems to help. For how long I couldn't tell you. Seeing as how it took this long to creep up and make me realize there is a good chance that it will probably hang around until I get word he is on his way home. I will say one thing I am proud of him. I feel blessed to know him, my brother, my 2 brother in laws, and my nephew and neice and all of my friends. They are amazing people.

Projects galore, oh and cleaning too!!!

I have things up my sleeve...

You see December is fast approaching... And I am one to not let projects go undone.. I have ideas, great and unique ones at that..

Thanks to some google research I have all the instructions I need to make all of it a reality!! Oh and my great friend Jennifer too...

We will order some pizza, turn on the iron, dust off the sewing machine and make some magic!!! Magic that everyone will have to wait until December to see!!

Since the projects are 100% for Shawn's fast approaching homecoming I want them to be a surprise, because sometimes he does actually read what I blog. When he is bored anyway. And with being on a ship in the middle of nowhere I imagine he gets bored alot (I love you Shawn).

But I will leave you with the smallest hint of what I am up against (I say that because I just discovered my crafty side).

Project one will include 5 black t-shirts and 5 long sleeve yellow shirts. Some yellow fabric. Black and yellow thread, an iron, pizza and some drinks with a great friend.

Project two will include Shawn's old cammies, a pair of scissors, and a wreath. (I think you can guess this one)

Project three includes some more fabric and twin/full/queen size sheets, sewing machine and different color thread!

And the fourth project will include makeup, a blowdryer, some hair gel, clothing and my husband!!! <- This will obviously be the homecoming I have been longing for since the day he left.

Well now that was fun!

Lack of blogging has to do with lack of time. Something that I have truly taken for granted.

My two awesome teenage nieces were in town and keeping them occupied included random trips to places like Dana Point, CA where James very loudly shouted "Mommy they have crabs!" Im not so sure I will ever stop turning red over that one.

We also went to Hollywood, CA. Which in my honest opinion was sooo not worth the drive. For one have you ever had to tell a 6 year old he is going to have to hold it because there is no public restroom in sight. You pay 10 bucks to park and you get lost coming back from the Hollywood sign. However the walk of fame was pretty neat and I got a bunch of pictures of it.

We hung around Oceanside for the most part. Not straying to far out of the ordinary.

But before our trip was done and over with and I had the chance to pack up and take us all on our 6 hour drive to Arizona Michelle decided she needed an emergency room trip with a HUGE flasback to May's visit (which I still havent finished explaining all the way about that one). No one can tell us what happened. One minute she was fine, the next she was curled into a ball in extreme pain that had her heart rate soaring over 200 and her temperature was over 104. Nothing has been explained. There was no cause found in her blood for the fever and there was no shunt malfunction. Weird.

But to my surprise my sister in law flew out the day after Michelle was admitted and was able to stay with me for a few days. She has not seen Michelle in almost 2 years and has NEVER met Abigail before all of this. She originally came out help me but got to hang out and have fun with me and the kids. Now my bed is extremely empty and I miss everyone.

Staying busy is my goal. I have a ton of plans before December. Actually more like goals. A hefty savings account is part of that goal. Im working on that now!!

Quickly

I have been WAY past MIA. You see I am playing Aunt Tara to two teenage neices. And my they are way fun and remind me a little of myself 8 years ago. I am going to miss them when they leave butttttt I get two more way fun neices to play with right after that. Such a bittersweet situation I tell you.

One a awesome note... You may remember me telling you about Abigail having VUR (kidney reflux) you can go here, here, and here to catch up on that.

Buuuuuuuttttttttttttttttttttttt


Wait for it....

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Her VUR is GONE!!!!!!! Now it can come back, it's rare but it could happen!!!!! My baby girl is *crosses fingers and prays like crazy* cured of her kidney disease!!!!!!


On a really good note Michelle is doing great and so is everyone else. I promise when I get 5 more minutes there will be plenty of pics and updates!!