Another year another new day of first's

First day of 1st grade.

First day of kindergarten.

First day of year 3 in pre-school....

First day that I havent had a chance to sit down and do anything up until this point. Sheesh. Im tired. And since the kids are sleeping I think im going to join them. Bring on day 2 of school cause im gonna be ready!

hard to think of anything

Even more so when your suffering from a horrible case of insomnia and technology cutoff. Since at&t can't get it together and fix my cable/internet/phone lines I'm stuck with the ittybity screen of a blackberry. Extremely annoying. The kids are all doing great. Michelle likes to throw me for loops every now and again but she does a lot of it out of habit. She has learned how to get her way, quite frankly its annoying but extremely brilliant. I wonder if I could see inside her little mind what I would find. I have high expectations for her. The thing of it is she has already risin above and beyond the majority of them. And of course I'm smiling from ear to ear about everything. Thr kiddos are definetly ready to go back to school (as am I lol! Shh its a secret). Were still counting down the days until Shawn returns home safe and sound. Let me just tell you that day cannot come soon enough, sleeping with a bulldog is not fun. She snores and smells very very badly. Lol! Well I guess I should go off to another night filled with no sleep. Oh I guess one good thing has come from the lack of sleep, I'm down almost 3 pant sizes!!!

Words...

There are three little words that a military spouse hangs onto like you wouldn't believe...


                                                            
                                         See you soon


                                             I love you.


These words me so much... Now I can't wait until im done counting the days to say..


                                          I missed you.

Long days, long nights...

It seems to be the story of my life when I tell you that my long day turns into a long night.

For weeks I have not slept. Im not sure why that is but I just don't sleep. I want to sleep. Badly. I have gone to the doctor. They say it's insomnia (been there done that in the past). Their advice. Take a sleeping pill. Yuck!

I don't do pills. I could hardly swallow the medication they prescribed over the weekend for a HORRIBLE migrane that had me practically in bed all day long.

I do however get alot more done without the kiddos underfoot : ). Which means all the laundry is currently done, folded and put away. The bathrooms are all clean and my house smells like a hospital. I have a germ issue. It's no secret, I don't like germs.

I had to share, I went to a small city not too far from Oceanside today. I packed up the kids and went for a drive to Temecula to share my day with a great friend and her kiddos! I got an AWESOME deal on some clothes for my kids! I love The Children's Place (LOVE IT). I do a majority of my shopping there, so when I discovered that there was a sale on clothes I pretty much outfitted my kids for the beginning of the school year plus I found an awesome deal on backpacks at Old Navy! And that mall was AWESOME in itself! I think im going that way from here on out if I want to go shopping lol!

The kids are all doing great. Me and Abigail are starting to butt heads. She thinks she needs to get into EVERYTHING!! It's been over 4 years since I have done the toddler thing. Michelle never went through that stage. I wish she had but she kind of skipped over it. So of course I am way out of practice when it comes to making sure she isnt into the things I keep the most organized. Like the movies. They are organized by kids movies through our movies but they are also organized by title. So I am slightly annoyed that I have to totally redo it tomorrow but oh well.

Michelle needs to go back to the orthopedic doctor to schedule more fenol and botox injections. They worked so wonderfully last time and the fenol and botox have definetly worn off and she has become more stiff the last few weeks. We were asked to wait a few more weeks to give her more recovery time from her week long battle with her shunts and I think we may be able to go back now. I will give her doc a ring before I schedule that one. I have to say I am extremely grateful for the options that we have been given for her. I feel like everything that we do Michelle shows us such awesome progress that it is hard to not repeat what needs to be repeated!

Well I guess im going to go lay in bed and count sheep or something. Who knows. Maybe the tv will bore me to sleep!

Looking for something maybe someone can help..

I make my girls bows thanks to my awesome sister in law teaching me. I am looking for the Desert Camouflage Marine Corps uniform ribbon. I want it to look exactly like the uniform. I have seen it. I know it exists and I have gone through almost every google page there is.

Someone help!!!!!!

Every wall breaks sometimes...

Im a pretty tough lady. When it comes to bad things happening within someones life there is a really good chance I have experienced it first hand. In a weird way I thank these people for these horrible and yet life changing events.

I watched a very favorite show of mine tonight. Army Wives. It hits very close to home for me seeing as how alot of what they talk about on the show is true in ways. I will however clarify that the military is like never leaving high school. There is always drama and most of the time it's ugly. Which is why I know about 5 of my neighbors and I personally am good with that.

Anyway, as I am watching I realize what tonights story line is about. I guess in way I haven't had a chance to really miss Shawn. Actually I know I haven't. I have been too busy. I have had things that sadly took away that ability for me to get through the grief for whatever time it was going to be here. Tonight however the grief has come thanks to the story line.

Different people. Completely different lives. All going through the same thing. I honestly wish I could say that it didn't hurt, it does. For the last 2 months it has been like I have been stubbing my toe over and over again and I just keep walking it off. But now. It's like I broke my whole leg. Bad analagy I know. You get my point.

Blogging this seems to help. For how long I couldn't tell you. Seeing as how it took this long to creep up and make me realize there is a good chance that it will probably hang around until I get word he is on his way home. I will say one thing I am proud of him. I feel blessed to know him, my brother, my 2 brother in laws, and my nephew and neice and all of my friends. They are amazing people.

Projects galore, oh and cleaning too!!!

I have things up my sleeve...

You see December is fast approaching... And I am one to not let projects go undone.. I have ideas, great and unique ones at that..

Thanks to some google research I have all the instructions I need to make all of it a reality!! Oh and my great friend Jennifer too...

We will order some pizza, turn on the iron, dust off the sewing machine and make some magic!!! Magic that everyone will have to wait until December to see!!

Since the projects are 100% for Shawn's fast approaching homecoming I want them to be a surprise, because sometimes he does actually read what I blog. When he is bored anyway. And with being on a ship in the middle of nowhere I imagine he gets bored alot (I love you Shawn).

But I will leave you with the smallest hint of what I am up against (I say that because I just discovered my crafty side).

Project one will include 5 black t-shirts and 5 long sleeve yellow shirts. Some yellow fabric. Black and yellow thread, an iron, pizza and some drinks with a great friend.

Project two will include Shawn's old cammies, a pair of scissors, and a wreath. (I think you can guess this one)

Project three includes some more fabric and twin/full/queen size sheets, sewing machine and different color thread!

And the fourth project will include makeup, a blowdryer, some hair gel, clothing and my husband!!! <- This will obviously be the homecoming I have been longing for since the day he left.