Gearing up for the big ol day!

Well in all honesty I have about 10 big ol days this year!

But the one im referring to is Michelle's first day at school! Im so excited! On April 14th Michelle will go to school for the very first time! I can't tell you how nervous I am....

It's not going to be me telling her no and pushing her to do it anymore... It's going to be someone else.... It's just weird that it's not me...

Im excited because she will get to go interact with kids of all sorts... No two children in her class will have the exact same condiotion... My guess is it makes for a busy classroom. Good thing though that she will not be that far from the house. She will be bussed to and from school so I can still take James to and from...

But still what am I going to do????

Here's a view into my chaois....

JR wasn't all that aware but since he was sleeping I let him cuddle next to his baby sissy!

She is getting to be such a big girl...

I am continuously finding these on my camera.... I wonder if the kids are trying to tell me something.. Maybe im just a big sleepy head!

He loves his little sister so much!

They are goofy little boys!

And the answer is...

No... She does not have Pyloric Stenosis, and no she does not have GERD, no she does not have Reflux of any sorts....

With that said... Why is she still throwing up some might ask... Possibly a viral infection in her intestines or stomach... That is all they can tell us... Im really hoping today is the last of it now that we have some sort of answer!

She did throw up this really nasty ball of mucous earlier.. I know TMI... But she has not thrown up since! And she tiped the scales at 5 pounds 1 ounce today! Im so excited!! WAy to go baby girl! Next week is her one month appointment so im excited to see what she is after that!

And were off...

To the doctors to hopfully get some sort of answer. I can tell you theses last 3 nights have been the worst in 2 years. Hospital stays are nothing compared to being on your own with and EXTREMELY crabby, puking baby. Who is constantly hungry when you know you just fed her 5 minutes ago.

If I were not so adamant about her getting breastmilk until she is a year you better believe I would have given up this weekend. BUt im not going to she is going to get it no matter what!

Wish us luck that we get an answer!

Another hurdle...

Some days just seem to fly by while othersjust drag on...

With this deployment halfway done days are going to run into each other no matter what... It's just what happens...

I noticed a change in Abigail.. Now at first I didn't think much of it. Until I reported it to her doctors and then we were told to take her straight to the ER.

To find that they strongly suspect that she has Pyloric Stenosis... I have heard of this condition many times... From mainly friends and from what I can find online and from the docs it mainly happens in first born males.. Now 1 Abigail is number 4 and she is not a male...

To find out that she may need surgery is heartbreaking... We have to go back to Children's hospital to run more tests and find out if for sure she has it... If she does than she will be having surgery soon. We have to truy and reverse the damage that has been done....

These are the days where I question alot of things and where I throw my hands up and ask "why!". I understand that everyone thinks im amazing and strong... Truth is im just human.. I make mistakes, I swear sometimes... I eat chocolate when I should be eating a salad...

I want so badly for the doctors to be wrong in hopes that she just has the flu... Because I don't want to think about another doctor and another OR and post op appointments and lab dreaws.. And being away from her for any amount of time...

Just shoot me please...

Im tired.. No I take that back I am E-X-H-A-U-S-T-E-D!

From 10PM last night until 3AM this morning I was in the ER with Abigail... Only to find that she has bacterial conjunctivitis... An infection in her eyes! Are you kidding me??? How in the WORLD DID SHE GET THAT!!!!!

I don't touch, kiss, or even stroke her face.. No one else does either... All that's left for me to even think is she has clogged tear ducts and they are infected.. Too bad the medication they prescribed her not one pharmacy in Oceanside,CA fills it and it will take over a week to get it in.. So tomorrow we are going to the Pediatrician to see if she even needs it.

Good thing they are open on the weekends. I did get the eye drops that she needs though. That was easy. I called 9 pharmacies, and went to 6 of them and some of them even called to see if they could find it. I feel bad I hope she doesn't need it because that means she went without it because of some stupid pharmacy!

Heck technically it isn't even the pharmacy it's the ER doctor who wrote it. Why prescribe something that is impossible to find??? Maybe he didn't even know... As it is I already feel like an Idiot because that seriously could have waited until morning and I could have gotten her an appointment instead of sitting there all night.. Although I did call the on call and they are the ones who told me to take her in... So maybe I should stop feeling that way...

My friend Jennifer took the kids all night long and didn't even call me to tell me they were up. She sent me a text and said when she calls she calls. LOL! I slept until 9 with Abigail only waking up 2 times. It was very nice. Although I missed my booger heads... Well I need to go wake up Abigail before I explode! She's been a little sleepy today.. Probably because she was disturbed so many times last night! Poor thing!

Apparently we have a virus..

A pretty yucky one too. Abigail would seriously NOT PEE!!! From 7 last night until 11 this morning... NOTHING... Not a dribble....

At 9 I said enough is enough and took her to Children's.. James even missed school because of this.. We get there they took her straight back.. They know me and they know it takes alot for me to even go in there so they did not doubt me one bit plus she's my 4th and by now I know...

Anyway.. The doc comes in and starts checking her out and I was telling her how she had had some really bad diahrea the night before and she asked if I was sure it wasn't mixed with pee and I said yes cause she did it without a diaper on.. So the doc takes her diaper off barely starts to examine her and what does she do??? PEE"S!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so mad/happy!!! So I turned around to get a diaper come back and she's covered in poop!

Gross nasty kinda poop too. I know TMI. But the doc was like well she is peeing.. I was like ya for the first time in 18 hours she pees... That's not normal.. So she checked again to make sure it wasn't cause she stimulated her and it wasn't apparently she decided to not hold it anymore.. Along with the poo too cause she has been doing that all day! So they released her on the condition that if it continues that she come back for IV fluids cause she can get dehydrated fast... Well duh that's what I was worried about why do you think I brought her in you ding dongs!!! The doctors were weird but the nurses were great.

Well maybe that's just cause they know us.. IDK if that's a good or bad thing.... Well finally a little while ago she SOAKED a diaper.. So im a little less worried but we will see how she does tonight... At least they didn't poke her.. I seriously would have lost it... I cried when we were getting ready to leave just because I had to take her... Stupid hormones! lol! Well that's my adventure for the day!!!!!!