I feel

Like a huge hole has been dug into my heart.

Like I can't breathe.

Like I can't think.

I miss him.

He's my bestfriend. The one who knows me best. The one who takes my hand and always tells me it will be okay when my faith starts to slip. He understands that sometimes I need to be allowed to freak out a little bit, because hey I am human.

Walking away and getting into my car because it was so darn late was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I have never had to leave him. He has always left on the bus. Today was different. Maybe thats what made it so much harder. Today I did something new... I left.