My heart is hurting even though the unknown has barely begun....

Almost a year ago to the month Michelle had her G-tube removed.

Then the refusal to eat came along, then the gagging at every meal. The worry came as did the anger that this was happening, again.

We have tried and tried and tried. Even getting stern did nothing. Taking away snacks did nothing. Her intrest to eat dissapeared. Now we sit and wait for the GI doc to call us back so that we may get into surgery since she is such a complicated case with her shunts that they can't just do it the way the normally do.

Her G-tube will be reinserted. Im not sure if it's sheer anger at myself that I am feeling for pushing them to take it out or sheer worry about how she will handle it this time. Since it has been a year since she last had a feeding through a tube it worries me if she will freak out everytime we hook her up.

Please pray for our sweet Michelle and that she may find understanding while she is hurting and please pray that she isnt in much pain.