My Heart.....

Hurts... I want so badly to hop on the next plane to Maine to stop him from going.
How do you do something so life changing by yourself when it took the both of you to make it happen??? Someone please dear god explain this to me.
Im trying so hard to keep it together for the kids but im finding it harder and harder to do the more time im home. I need my husband.
Michelle has cried for her daddy all day and she does not understand that when that bus drove off so did dada. I keep telling the kids that we will see him soon it's just going to have to be after Abigail is born. They don't really like that response all that well.
My hearrt hurts... My head hurts... My eyes burn from all the tears...