It's so hard

Not being able to pick up my phone and text him that same questions that I did everyday for so long.. " Hey babe what time are you going to be getting off? I love you!".

I was talking to out friend who was deployed with Shawn last time and he said he has caught himself starting to text him.

Shawn Jr. woke this morning with croup and because he would not stop wheezing I took him to the ER to get him a new inhaler because his last one was out.

James has been acting out alot here lately. I know he is trying to see how far he can go before he hears those words of "mister if you do not stop you will be grounded and you will loose a toy". He honestly stops whatever it is that was wrong RIGHT away when he hears that.

Michelle is FINALLY feeling better. I pretty sure ontop of the shunt issue she had the flu too. Because I was JUST barely able to get her to tolerate whatever she wanted to eat during the day and 2 bolus feeds during the day. So tonight is going to be the ultimate test of seeing how she does on her continuous. Hopefully she has no issues and I don't have to get out of bed unless Miss Abigail decides to use my bladder as a punching bag!

As for Abigail! Oh my can she be a stinker sometimes. Like right now for instance she is just chillin in the WORST possible position. Will she move for me NOPE! I've even tried moving her! Nothing is working. At least the backache I had ALL day today is gone. For now I hope.

Let me tell you how I gave myself that one. I woke at 2 in the morning to a foot in the face. This foot happened to belong to James and of course I was startled and I yelled at him of "James you need to lay still and stop NOW!" Im pretty sure I startled him as I think his eyes were closed so of course he tried running out of my room crying. I jumped out of bed and caught him to cuddle him and apologize. It's Karma I tell you! Since I upset him so badly my back hurt like the dickens until we talked this afternoon of how if were going to get into mommmy and daddy's bed that we need to hold still more.

Well I think the tylenol helped too. But still. I read an article today on Yahoo.com and honestly could not believe the things that I read! Did you know I believe it's Nebraska lets parents drop off their children at any hospital under the Safe Haven law? Now I know EVERY state has this law but im talking about children of all ages! People are coming from out of state to drop off their children. This mother that I read about already had a child in foster care and was about to be charged with neglect I believe. My question is HOW COULD YOU HARM A CHILD???? Neglect counts as harming as far as im concerned! Because someway that does harm the child.

I could never even imagine doing something like that! In another one of my opinions all of her children should be taken away from her! Ugh frustration comes over me about this!

Well im done ranting for now! I should probably be off to bed so that I can go get Michelle sized for her AFO's tomorrow! So excited!